Saturday, January 14, 2012
Will my social status turn around in college?
In elementary school, i was diagnosed with hearing loss, and needed hearing aides. Soon after, All my friends started drifting away from me, probably because i was different, and instead of hanging out with me, my large group of friends started to ignore me, or make fun of/mock me behind my back, about my hearing. this continued throughout my years of middle school. by the time i moved on to high school, i had no friends, yet several people who enjoyed making fun of me simply because i was an easy target, and i have never been one to be cruel, so i never did anything about it, or in retaliation, i never really did anything to them, i was simply the target. I went to a vocational high school instead of the local one hoping to rid myself of these people and start anew, a few people came with me to the new school, but only those who chose to ignore me. however by this time i was so used to never having anyone to talk to, i actually had no idea how to make friends. so in four years of high school, i was never able to connect with anyone, not even the ones i spent my 4 years in shop with. because of my silence, everyone umed i just hated them, and so those whom i had contact with also mocked me, and soon as people formed their groups of friends i was again, left alone. i managed by the end of my senior year to have two friends, who enjoy my company so long as i dont overdo it (i can sense they get annoyed if i try to talk to them when they talk to their more "popular " friends) I guess what i am asking is, if this is simply the need for teens to have someone they can make fun of when they want some extra attention, or if it sounds like i need to change. i am still extremely quiet, and i can only really talk about things relating to my own interests, because i have been so socially outward i dont know how to have a conversation about random things, or even make people laugh. anything you may have to help me would be appreciated. and thank you for reading this long question!
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